Just read it and tell me. That's it. Do it do it?

Its been two years since i caught depression and borderline personality disorder. Depression is gone but the trauma of these two years. The suicidal thoughts , the weirdness the darkness transformed me totally. You know the dark side. I'm not a loner or stuff.i'm devoid of emotions. Studies suffered but its alright. My way of living in alone now. Even when i'm with people who love me i feel lone.alone ness gives me peace.dexter morgan is my fav thing ever. Idk you connect.?