Uhm .... NVR BEEN KISSED ALMOST 18.... SELF ABSORBED? OR SCARED? A TEASE?... IDKKK HELPPP?

ok sooo i turn 18 in like a month and iv never had my first kiss, the only thing iv done is held hands. i know in hs thats like majorly wierd and unheard of but i kinda like it, cuz im all about being different or whatever. anyway its not like iv never had the chance cuz i do get told kinda often that i have like a good bod and whatnot, like ppl r all so r u ready for ur first kiss yet? but now im wondering how long this will last, if i like teasing ppl making it seem like im too good for anything, or to like them whatevs idk!!! or if im just like totally unsexual. i just wonder, .... i hope this weirdness dosent make me the unkissed 40 yr old virgin lips n all. sooooo plz tell me what u think my deal is?! have u ever felt like this or known anybody with the same issue!? thank yall!!